The challenge of not working

Okay, the toughest thing to me is relying on one income. I feel so helpless when it comes to the situation at hand.
My husband's job has been for some time on it's way out as the company has merged with another and declared bankruptcy. The end of this job is only a matter of time. No one has said anything to us about his job, but his company may cease to exist soon enough. This has made me sick to my stomach. I can only imagine how he must feel.
The hardest part about this whole thing to me is that I must give up my control of the situation and completely rely on my DH, to find work. I am making it my part time job to look for another for him. The thought of an eminent layoff is sickening to me.
So I am left to pray trust and rely on someone else.

That is one of the hardest parts of being an at home mom.